icon: "strong (a photo of me in warm light with my hair down around my face, staring intensely into the camera in a defiant mood)"Content note: general discussion of abuse, social fall-out from talking about abuse, and rape (no specifics ( Read more... )

icon: "disassociative (a digital painting of a stylized person in profile with wide open screaming mouth and arms up with palms spread wide. Head and hands flow into strands like blood vessels)"
( TW/CN: Aziz Ansari's sexually coercive behavior )

icon: "healing (a photo of me and Hannah curled up together, naked, with Hannah's head resting on my legs and my arms around/over them. it's colored in violet with a fractal overlay of purple, blue, and green.)"

1. being triggered is literal torture, not mere dislike or discomfort.
   
2. your thoughts can get stuck in loops that take outside intervention to ( Read more... )

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( TW: discussion of boundary violation, manipulation, and lack of effort to avoid rape )

Since making that series of posts about my desire for tribe last week, I've felt a powerful shift. Zawn, Kei-Won-Tia, Anika, Kylei, Topaz, and Heather all expressed to me that they want that too and are willing and desirous of putting forth the effort to create it!!! And Heather and Camellia and Kei-Won-Tia and Zawn all suggested plans to hang ( Read more... )

It's been ages since I wrote -- partly from busyness and partly because I was so freaking stressed about financial stuff that I could not spend time in reflective mindspace or I'd fixate on it. My financial aid finally came in this week (two and a half weeks into the semester, having no books) so I have a little room to breathe. and so much has ( Read more... )

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argh! I've gotten blocked, I strongly dislike when this happens. I have such a flood of new thoughts/feelings that I am trying to sort and express, and I took too long of a break from the expressing part and now it has all built up and bottlenecked. *growl* I've stopped reading my current nonfiction because it inspires too many MORE new ( Read more... )

apologies for the comment-disabling; I hate to do it but it's necessary this time. This is an extremely sensitive topic for me and last time I posted about it the disagreements put me in a serious depression and I'm fairly depressed right now anyway, so I just can't handle it. If you agree and want to talk more about it, feel free to email me. ( Read more... )